It has been awhile

I have not written in sometime. I was sick with the flu really bad and than for those of you who have heard about the shooting on December 14, 2012 of those 20 innocence children at school, really made me depressed for the rest of the month. I took it hard just like the rest of the people who have children. I did not know those children or those families but it hurt as if they were my own and took me a really long time to pull myself out of the depression I was in. I can not begin to guess what those families are feeling right now and I wish I could take away their pain and bring back their loved ones. But I know I must go on and I know I need to get back into going to church. The world will never understand what drives people to those acts of volience, people can blame guns or the devil but truely in the end we will never know. So I am back to writing and express my inner most feelings and I hope someone out there cares enough to just read them. I want people to understand what it means to be lonely and wishing someone to hear them even in here writing thoughts and feelings down no matter how right or wrong they seem. Does anyone care? Laura