Just Me

I am not sure why but I can't shake this depression that seems to have me in it's grip since Dec. 14, 2012. Nothing seems to be going alright and I look for the light at the end of the tunnel: it's not there. I am bitchy and just tired of everything. It is the same thing day in and day out. I know I should just go to my doctor but I really don't have the time or money for that. What I want to know is why am I so depressed? Christmas was not that great and yet it was for everyone else. I am glad it was great for my son. I know one thing that I am tired of where I am working and think it is time for a new change there. After so many years it is time to move on and spread my wings to fly. Where I am going to fly too is the question and it can be very scarey if you do not know where the wind takes you. Writing here helps me even if I write badly. I am wondering what others do to left them out of their depression. I have been depressed before but not like this. I just feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. Well with that note I am off for the moment. Does anyone care? Laura