I really don't like December anymore

As a kid I loved this month and not just because of Christmas. As a kid I got two weeks at home and snow. Those were my reasons for loving December as a kid. As an adult I loved it because of my son's birth and snow. Now with all that has happen, I have lost the joy I once felt for this month. My daughter is in jail and more than likely never coming out for crimes she was accused of doing, and those 20 children who were killed last year at Sandy Hook elementary school. I think about those children who laid there dying wondering if they were call for their parents as their life slipped away. I cry for those parents who lost their children and could not be there for them. As I never have lost a child, I do not know the depth of their pain, I as a parent can only guess at it but the hurt is awful and worse I am sure. How do I let go of all this sadness I have inside of me my own personal sadness of all this. I just don't know anymore. I keep going and keep it to myself, not letting anyone know. I make sure my son has a good time but sometimes I just want to give up. Does anyone care? Laura