Really what does it all mean?

It is hard when you child begs for your help and in no way can you help. I want to take away her hurt, I want to take away my hurt. But how, how do I make it better? I want to scream at the whole world she is not a monster. I can understand how families are hurt by the news media. I believe in my daughter as any mother would not just because the evidence states it. I feel for people who are convicted and they are innocent. Life goes on but how does mine, my daughter, and my young son move beyond this point. It's something I don't have the answers for yet. I write and write(not much on here but poems by hand) to vent my feels for everything and everyone. I am making quilts, one for my son and one for my daughter and I think a good way to get through this is to make those quilts about them in some way, each square has a special meaning to me and them. In some ways maybe this will give me some answers I am missing and some peace for my soul. Well I better go for now does anyone care? Laura

Blindsided

I have been blindsided, knocked completely off my feet. It seems even worse than that, my daughter who is an adult is being charged with sexual rape of two little children. She stated she did not do it and as her mother I believe her. But the media has made a monster out of her. I feel so helpless to help her with all this. Yes we have a good attorney but still there is nothing else I can do for her right now. I also feel so bad for those families that are involved as well. I just want to run and scream and make this all go away. I now have a complete understanding of how other families feel when someone get's charged and blamed for something. It is a nightmare, a horror that does not go away and affects everyone around you. The media is a cruel tool when it is you they are after and anyone who knows you. I am tried to keep it together and keep things normal for my son but how can I? I keep thinking deep down, did she really do this and if so where did I go wrong with her? She was great growing up and after high school was going to college until she meet this guy who is pure evil. How could she not see this, when I warned her about him so much. She sits in jail on a 2 million bond that I could never afford to get her out on and I think safer in there in some ways. I never wish this upon anyone but yet there are other families out there in the same position I am in. I have to be strong for my family but I am tired because I feel as if I am fighting a losing battle with the media and what people believe. I just don't know. Does anyone care? Laura